The stress of work and personal responsibilities combined with my aching, growing body has left me more exhausted than usual this week–and more uncomfortable. I’ve also been experiencing a brief tightness across my belly frequently throughout the day. Braxton Hicks contractions? Of course, now I’m paranoid that I’m not going to be able to tell the difference between true and false labor. One of my greatest fears is delivering way too early.
May would be way too early.
I can only imagine that I’d be feeling better if my husband were home to help. I’m jealous of every pregnant woman who gets to experience all 40 weeks of pregnancy with her husband at her side. It is challenging in so many different ways to go through this transition alone, and I confess here that being a military wife is not my favorite thing. If JB has to deploy again during future pregnancies, I hope it’s during the second trimester instead of the third, when I’m less huge and have more energy.
In nursery news, the crib and chair have finally been ordered! It’s because of me that we waited so long to order the furniture. Despite knowing what we wanted for several weeks, I just wasn’t ready to commit. I don’t know if it was fear of making the wrong decision or that having a fully decorated baby’s room would make this all “real,” but I just couldn’t pull the trigger. Truthfully, JB was the one who actually ended up placing the order…
Oh, and in case you were wondering, my weeks change over on Saturdays. So when I post these weekly reviews on Monday, I’m already 2 days into the next week.
{self-portrait taken at 32 weeks, 4 days}
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